Note on Past Postings

I just wanted to say that it's not my style to write something in a sarcastic tone. I didn't mean to suggest that I'd done that, even, at any point in the blog. I've never thought or spoken or written with that in mind, and I never could. But even though I've harmed things irreparably with all the free-floating darkness and frustration, I never was meaning to state anything in anything but a generalized way these last few days. And, this morning, I said those things from my heart. Even though I'd like to think I am, I'm not very open in a lot of ways. I found that when I began to think about those things, it was, in a very remarkable way, very, very much the same as that description. I think there can be both reason-based and experiential aspects to it, and I don't think it necessarily has to ever change. I wish I could say I'm an expert in that area, but I'm not. I think one can think of those things in any way one wants to, and to do that is, in fact, an exceedingly rare and wonderful thing. I think a person can't deny oneself an exploration, in a complete way, of the doubts and fire of that type of experience. For what little it's worth, I've felt that fire in those articles for a long time. Those experiences change you in a powerful way. Even though I'd like to think I have a comfortable perspective on things, I don't. Maybe one is never supposed to be comfortable. I don't know. ("To him that overcometh will I give to eat of the hidden manna, and will give him a white stone, and in the stone a new name written, which no man knoweth saving he that receiveth it.")